Pray for me...

Today, I start the Daniel Fast.

Daniel 10:2-3 “In those days I, Daniel, was mourning three full weeks. I ate no pleasant food, no meat or wine came into my mouth, nor did I anoint myself at all, till three whole weeks were fulfilled.”

I know I'm late. But I figured later was better than never. I've been doing all my research (I'm kind of a research freak. I think I should have been a private investigator), have gone to the store, and am ready to make my first meal. The foods that I can eat are:

• water


• all fruits


• all vegetables


• all whole grains (brown rice, whole wheat pasta, whole wheat tortillas, popcorn)


• all nuts and seeds


• beans

So basically no meat, no dairy, no sugar, no coffee.

Wait, no coffee?

I can't tell you enough how much junk is really in all of our foods! I never really looked at the ingredients too much. I try to eat alot of fruits and veges, stay away from pasta, no packaged meals, you know...the things that 'seem' healthy. I realized this when I was searching for two things in particular. Organic pasta sauce (since whole wheat pasta is allowed) and oatmeal. The sauce was tricky! I searched and searched and finally found one that fit my budget...why didn't anyone ever tell me how expensive organic foods are?! It's crazy how much sugar is really in everything. But, I have to do it. I want to do it. I feel I need to do it. The breakthrough that I need...let's pray I get it. 21 days...here I come!

Two reasons I think I should be married...

1. To make sure I am awake in the morning and to prevent me from hitting snooze 16 times. Resulting in the best ten minute sleep intervals ever experienced, but consequently making me late for work.


2. To shovel the 32 inches of snow that has engulfed my car.

Give Me Faith

So, I follow Pastor Steven Furtick from Elevation Church in Charlotte, NC pretty closely. My night last night was filled pain, and worry, and just feeling very, very lost. But God is right on time. After getting out of the shower from which I was hunched over in a ball crying, I got online and searched for a sermon that I hadn't listened to yet. Praise the Lord I found Give Me Faith. And boy did it ever! Here are some key points from the sermon that saved me last night.

• What are the temptations and music that plays in your life? The idols that you hold larger than God? What is your "music"? What is your "idol"?


• If the music plays loud enough it will drown God's voice and you WILL bow down to it.


• Realize that your idol will not and cannot satisfy you.


• You cannot turn to anything but Jesus without turning your back to Jesus.


• God demands and insists on exclusive worship.

We have got to stop listening to the outside world...our idols...our music. The devil knows exactly what music he needs to play in order to make you dance. You've got to lay down your idol...lay it all down at the feet of Jesus and know that nothing in this world can ever be as big or as important as Him and His love for us.

Single...again...I think.

I am single. Again. I think. The "I think" part is the most confusing. There is a new chapter in my life...I think...I decided that a new blog was also in order. The old one just wasn't cutting it. So, here I am. I am divorced. 27. And definitely not where I thought I would be at this point in my life. I realize that I am not old, and that there is still plenty of time to do what I want to do...like have kids. But it doesn't make it any easier. Knowing that you may need to start over. It's so hard to find someone...a Godly someone, that you can stand being around and talk to everyday...let alone picture yourself spending the rest of your life with. It takes me hours to decide on a pair of shoes...let alone a man. I think one of the hardest parts about separating from someone is filling your time. You really don't fully gather HOW MUCH TIME you spend consumed with that other person. Time that I am filling with His Word. But all that time that you spent with that other person...talking, texting, talking, driving, worrying, shopping, talking. Did I mention talking? When it was a long distance relationship, as mine was, you spend ALOT of time talking on the phone. I find myself looking at it hundreds of times during the day. Wondering if it's broken. But it's not. And neither am I. Now I just need to make myself believe that...